Too much.

I smile and laugh and act like everything's a-okay but deep inside seryoso I'm hurting. Fck. And sometimes yung pain, it's fucking too much to take ;(( Ang hirap sobra. Ang hirap magpanggap na masaya ka. I'm breaking down na every night. Hindi na tama toh. Fck. Why oh why. Anong nangyayari sakin. Haist. Ayoko naaaa

volleyball

SHEEET KATING KATI NA KO MAGVOLLEYBALL.

Ever since naglaro ako ng volleyball nung grade 6 ako super dream ko na maging UAAP player ng volleyball sa ateneo, since ateneo was (and will always be) my dream school back then. Eh pagdating nung highschool, taena, tinamad ako magtraining dahil sa mga taliwas na coach =))) Ayan tuloy. Nga nga ang volleyball career. HAHAHA. Yan ang isa sa mga regrets ko sa buhay. I've realized na all my efforts nung High school (summer training, being captain, etc) nasayang. I'm not bragging. I'm just saying na yeah, sinayang ko. I love the game, I really do. Sadyang kulang lang sa tiyaga and passion. Damn.

loner

Mahiraaaaap. Mahirap magmahal ng sobra. Lalo na yung alam mong mali na. Hahaha. DELIKADO. Oh well. Tae kasi yung twitter eh. Dami kong nakikitang super nasasapul ako. Lalo na yung "kaya mo siyang iwan, TAKOT KA LANG." Ohh bullshit. Straight to mah ass men! Haha. Bakit kasi eh. Sakit ko toh eh ang magmahal nang sobra. MASAKIT. Ba naman toh oh. Hahaha.

Gagi. I feel such a loner. Blog na lang ang kausap ko. Yaaak. Hahaha. Ever since nagstart ako magcollege, I feel so alone. Siguro I just made High School the center of everything when I was younger kaya ko ganto. Hanggang ngayon hirap ako mag-adjust. Tae. HAHA.

Gusto ko lumayo. Yung umalis muna saglit. Tapos wala ko iisipin kundi sarili ko. Kung pwede lang eh. Oh well. kbye

VOTE 'VOTE'! LEZZ GO BOSCONIANS! XD

Huh. Wake up, Joanna. Wake the f**k up.

Maliwanagan ka. NOW NA. :|

That made me smile

Di ko nga lang babanggitin kung ano ba nakapagpangiti sakin pero ayun. Nakakatuwa. Haha. Nakakatuwa yung mga taong mababaw. Haha. Anyways, another super quick blog before I sleep.

Soo, what has happened?

Last Friday, umuwi na yung tita ko galing states :) We are all very very very happy to see her! Dami pasalubong. Yehey! Also, I changed my mobile phone. So far, okay naman. Hindi ko pinagsisisihan :) Kanina ko lang narealize na ang dami ko pa palang kailangan gawin. As in SUPER. My schedule's going loco. Ugh, hate it. Please let me be done.

Me and my family are going through a lot of things right now.. You may not see it on our faces but we're having a hard time right now and we're all praying for the best. We're not losing hope!

Ciao xx

Quick

Okay, just gonna make a quick blog before I leave. Haven't blogged for a week! Yes, I was hell busy.

Soo, where do I start?.. Ah! Last Saturday and Sunday (Nov. 20-21) was one of our best weekends ever! Here's the story.. At around 11am we left the house and went straight to Traders Hotel at Manila. Dapat sa Sofitel kami mag-check in kaso fully booked eh. Kaya we just decided na sa Traders na lang. Anyway, the only purpose of staying at a hotel was para malapit lang kami sa MOA. Okay, so we arrived at the hotel at around 2pm? Can't remember eh. Basta mga hapon nandun na kami. Ayun, we explored the hotel. Okay naman. Though iba pa din talaga sa Sofitel. Hehe :) Pumunta din si Kuya Renz. We had fun! Ayun, Sunday na! Wew! Woke up at around 7 am ate breakfast with the kids (Ate Jesy, Kuya Renz, Ate Marian & Sergei) Haha. Sarap naman kahit papano. We prepared to go to MOA. 10am na nasa hotel pa dn kami eh 10:15 ang time ng movie. OH GOOD. Hahaha. Pero when we got to MOA, specifically sa may Director's Club, everybody was there na. \m/ Awesome. Ang dami pala namin. It felt so good to see the people you love gathered in one place. The movie started as soo as we arrived. HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS part 1 WAS BEYOND AWESOME. I loved it! Kuhang kuha nila yung nasa book. David Yates is a genius. Cool talaga. The movie ended. Ang saya. We went out of the movie house and got back to our kamustahan session again. We were all happy. But most of all, my sister was happy. After the movie we went straight to Shakey's to have lunch. Ayun nabusog naman kami. Then it was sad that some friends have to go na. We kissed them goodbye and thanked them for the awesome day. Pero yung relatives namin sumama muna sa hotel. Nice. Bonding moments ulit! Hahaha.

It was a looong day for all of us but we enjoyed. We were all happy. After those days I realized something. Something I should've thought before I got fooled with my head. I've realized that I don't need someone (specifically a boyfriend) RIGHT NOW. I have my family and friends to make me be happy and to make me feel that I am loved. I knew that instant that I was truly cared for and I know THEY WILL NEVER HURT ME. They are my happiness and my love. I couldn't ask for more. I am truly blessed to have them. After I thought about this I said to myself, "Ayan kasi, masyado kang nagmadali." But I don't regret any of those decisions, I mean, I made them so one way or another I wanted those decisions. The only thing is I've made a lot of mistakes because of deciding things on my own without me getting advice or help. Yes, I was stubborn. But now that I've grew up or became (a little bit) matured, I got up, learned from those mistakes and I'm living my life on the right ways. It felt good it know all of these. God is good.

So there you have it. A lot had happened lately this week but too bad couldn't type it all. Like I said this is just a quickie :) Anyways, latest news! My sister's new baby got home last tuesday! It's a new iPad! The iPad's name is Lilac. And yes, she's a girl! :)) Haha. So there.

Done. For now. Ciao.